Good day to you!

I love getting hugs. I enjoy all the many variations of hugs, from the one armed side hug to my Jr higher's running literally as fast as they can, colliding with me with such force that I nearly fall over hug. I don't exactly know what it is about a hug that comforts me, except maybe the security that runs through my body. I think of a hug as shielding me from the world around, blocking out the stormy clouds, and the fear of the unknown. But, hugs also shield me from myself. My inner turmoil, and insecurity. When I am in someones arms I can let go of the breath I have been holding in and the tension in my muscles release, leaving me at ease.

So imagine having a relationship with Someone and not getting a physical hug from them. If that's how you express your love and you can never give Them a big gracious strong hug. It's hard. It's like you are always holding your breath.

Last week Matt VanCleave was teaching the main congregation at CSF. And he said something that really got me thinking. God is so much a part of us that He can put images or thoughts into our minds. Since then, I have been praying for my relationship with God to grow and for me to be able to hear Him when He is talking to me. And to know all the ways in which He speaks to me.



A few days ago, after praying about this, I took some usual thoughts I might circle around in my head for a while and opened them up to God. He listened while I talked and when I asked Him, "How can I get past this pattern of ungratefulness and emptiness?" He answered. CHANGE in big bold black letters. CHANGE. As in CHANGE your life. You know the patterns of disobedience you fall into and you know what I want for you. My Word says it all.

This morning, during worship for Jr High, I pictured Him walking up to me on a cloud looked me in the eyes, kneeled to my level in front of me and wrapped His arms around me with all of His love and promises holding me tight. He smiled with me and wept with me and loved with me. He did not have to say a word.

<3 Melyn

Today is the Day

I woke up this morning to an obnoxious alarm, telling me that I had to start my day. No excuses, you signed up for this bible study, you bought the book, you have told people you are going. Just for a second I thought here is your chance to skip it... just turn the snooze off and fall back to sleep. I passed up that thought and got out of bed, made some coffee and drove to Cornerstone Fellowship (in Livermore).

As I approach the parking lot I see women of many ages walking up to the building. All ages, except mine. Wow I feel out of place. Walking in, I find a seat in the back away from the hoards of people that do know someone there. But beneath all that worry and doubt, and after the beautiful worship, I listen to the words of Priscilla Shirer. They tell me, this is why you are here. You are not here to fit in every where you go, but to follow where God leads you. And sometimes He leads you to places, that you don't fit in. Maybe more often then not you find yourself out of place and, as I see it "alone". But that's just the thing, we do always have someone to talk to when we feel uncomfortable or alone. Sometimes we just don't DO anything about it.

Today is the day to DO something about it.

<3Melyn